Tuesday, 18 September 2012
When I first started my Xanga, I started with the full intent of it being political blog. I'd express my views, expose the truth, show how ignorant the other side is, etc.
Before I knew it, it started to morph into so much more, as did my views. I started making friends out there, I saw how blind some folks were, and how open others were.
Recently out of boredom one day, I went back to read some of my old posts. I also saw how my writing has changed quite a bit as well. I still keep it fiery a good amount of the time, but more level-headed it seems as well. I still research and many times even create an outline before I write a post. Never once thought I'd do that when I was in high school. I thought "nah, a good writer will just be able to sit and write." So, there's my official apology to Mrs. Gasser, my old English teacher.
Even though I never made a conscious effort, I was a bit amazed at how my writing has changed over the years. Admittedly, my old posts look well, amateur. I don't think my current writings are professional quality by any means, but they're a huge improvement on the posts I made six or seven years ago. I think now, I'm better able to put my thoughts into words, instead of sitting there going "oh, what's the word for that feeling" or "what is it called again when someone does that?"
I think one reason is because having taken part in so many debates on Xanga, I've been forced to rethink my stance on some issues many times. I've been forced to sit and REALLY think about things. "Is that how I really feel? Why do I feel that way? Is it justified?"
In being forced to think so much, many of my views have changed. Maybe change isn't the proper word. Morph? No... heck, guess I still have to sit here and think about how to put things to words sometimes! I guess you could say is, my views haven't changed so much as I have. What I mean is, are the views really changing when more information is available? By available information, I don't necessarily mean new discoveries, I mean opening our minds to accept that information that is already out there. Are we flip-flopping or changing our views when we start to open our eyes?
I still find it amazing how so many folks hold the same values and beliefs as their parents. I know it's the environment they grew up in, but it always makes me feel like they're not thinking for themselves. Of course, it doesn't mean you HAVE to disagree with them to show you're thinking for yourself. But if you agree 100% of the time on politics or social issues, there's something not going on there.
I was an adult when I started my Xanga. I was married, already had a few little reapers running around. But I wasn't done growing. I'm glad I wasn't done growing. Because I think when we are done growing, we are done living. A day without learning something new, is a day wasted.
I just still find it amazing how much I feel my writing has changed since being here on Xanga.
Has your writing changed since joining Xanga? If you're one of the folks always discussing policies and politics, have your views changed much? Call me nostalgic, but I just think all the changes over a few short years are amazing.